Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Even with others-
It seems in general that others are okay off having fun, but I'm so amazing yet totally put down after for no good reason.
Sorry
I felt affected. It was possibly a cruel joke, too. I sensed it and the mood. They seem mad. Today. I am a weirder person, but is it important to know how I feel so I don't explode? Hopefully not. I feel better, but if you don't like me now, OK. Have fun with who deserves it, but I don't deserve hate.
Problem
Stop bothering me. On IMDb, they put a poster in the middle of my topics..
Never had this before.
Never had this before.
Problem
Everyone is going around acting like I have some secret meaning they made public because of Johnny Depp..
Problem
That girl goes with the flow and is condescending toward me acting like she's saying, "Ugh!" in a high squeaky voice and sending a message via like being told to put on a skit.. to teach me a lesson!
Problem
You can't hold me at bay and everyone else do what they want. Why is someone when they tag me think they're right and I'm wrong when they're snotty? What's wrong with the word snotty?
Serious Question
iPhone has Instagram and not Blackberry.. is there an advanced phone with a keypad and Instagram? February I can get a new phone, maybe now, though.
So
Have fun talking to everyone! Sorry if you don't like me. I'm not trying to be mean. I talk about mean people, and then things happen. People who are mean. People I see. Anyone. Not that person altogether, though I must admit I think her sister is onto her because she is older than her and seems to feel she is spoiled over her suffering.
Me? I'm not that young, but I have issues with people like that, though no I don't get comfortable non-threatened attention. I didn't know what I did was so very wrong. Most people would gloss over it. I don't see why you can ruin my life for it. I also have the feeling I will be threatened for saying I don't feel good. I think I know what I'm talking about. I am not doing this especially for anyone. I usually do it like this.
Me? I'm not that young, but I have issues with people like that, though no I don't get comfortable non-threatened attention. I didn't know what I did was so very wrong. Most people would gloss over it. I don't see why you can ruin my life for it. I also have the feeling I will be threatened for saying I don't feel good. I think I know what I'm talking about. I am not doing this especially for anyone. I usually do it like this.
I know!
You're bothering me about having an iPhone like everyone else and it not having a keypad so me saying disgusting for convenience as though on Twitter! But I don't use Twitter as a blog!
You know you'll get what you want. I guess if you blogged, you'd have to be careful.
You know you'll get what you want. I guess if you blogged, you'd have to be careful.
Word.
I shoulda known. Anyway, it was really miserable and my ride ended up coming late. I was sitting outside a place. I was on my new iPhone, whereas my slow Blackberry had a keypad and didn't do much.
What is anyone looking for?
I didn't do anything but still said I was sorry. Okay, you have a word frenzy.
So..
..no hard feelings, but you keep using that person against me. She's definitely been nasty. So, I don't know why you have the right to be mad. You just act like you don't know what I'm talking about. Oh, no, did I ruin it, cuz I know someone other than me isn't perfect? I was surrounded by nasty people, and nothing ever happened to them. I wanted to say nasty-ass, but you don't know anything about if it's right to curse or not. And I dunno why I happen to seem to be talking to anyone in particuilar, but it wouldn't help if I were trying to be nasty rather than smart.
Dream
It was a weird fantastical world, and Ellen supposedly was dead and like someone who died in another world. I rubbed a little card when we were still checking on her, and she was alive.
Bothered
Someone admitted in plain day, giving in that I was Asian. I cannot have that.. You didn't do it to other mean people. Why track me down? I was upset, but I didn't do anything! You still didn't explain that.
Problem
Why do you hurt me and not her? Something is bothering me. I am not my dad, and I am not my neighbors. You think that someone else can have someone important in my life comfortably in that sorta disposable way. Why are you so nice to her? I told you to stop bothering me, but you keep coming back like you did something right. This person is only a reciever, too.
Can you explain to me..
..the right to mistreet me for using the word "disgusting?" I think I've had problems with this before, I remember now, so let's just forget it but remember what I meant, nothing ugly and gross. You all keep flocking to other people I know and acting like I did something. You chose to take that word that way..
What?
Why is everyone ruining my life? You're not all more younger than me. Whose idea was it to forsake my esteem? Why are you pushing someone sweet to be mean to me? Why doesn't it matter what I say I feel? I am a plain ole good person. I do care. Why be silly? Want to prolong the treatment to others about me? What did I do? Why didn't anyone talk @ that? I just took back the way ya'll whined cuza the word "disgusting." I mean, that 's "what" she did and I did feel sorry/bad, of course. She seems to have high self-esteem @ her overly refined looks. Why can't I forget @ her like that? She always, it feels, talks back. She can be excessively beautiful, sure. Just doesn't seem impressed with others. Her dad, like Jackie Evancho's, is very handsome. We'll, I hope I learn to be a good mentor or, 1st, person. How would I forget @ her if ya'll're sending insulting messages with others to me? Also, that other girl worries me. I do pray others get the attention they desire. OK now..
Monday, July 14, 2014
Nasty
I wasn't trying to be too nasty to a girl.. You just don't like the word "disgusting," so I took it back. She was literally trying to look disgusting like my dad staring at me like I did something just to get at people. That's not a good thing, but maybe people aren't interested in that. Even if it's just constructive crticism.
I must admit people are like giving her attention over me, which is fine, you gotta give the world its turn.
I must admit people are like giving her attention over me, which is fine, you gotta give the world its turn.
Kind vs. Amount of Attention..
You guys fantasized me being the bad guy and probably getting less and less attention when at 1st it's like wow I'm not special anymore, these people who attest to what they saw are untrained monkeys.
Problem
I just wanna go out and eat my supper and go back to my life, but my dad keeps getting in the way. He always has a rough attitude and sends signals that give me inappropriate feelings.
Sorry
for being so vicious and getting anything out.. I try to stop but ya'll find it so fascinating
Upset
So, not only do people after me experience pleasure beyond my wildest imagination somehow, but they are comfortable. I'm comfortable.
Why must I swear at myself like I'm a schizophrenic?!
Why must I swear at myself like I'm a schizophrenic?!
Sad
What happened to good Christina? Can't mess up? :|
If you wanna romp in like it's some test, I usually win.
If you wanna romp in like it's some test, I usually win.
I am so sorry?
How can I carry a conversation? Look at IMDb. Maybe, I should make all my marks there. Not really. I will just have to find my own thing to do.
Problem
They won't stop!
What place to they have saying I'm something that shouldn't ever be? I am not giving anything up in Orlando!
What place to they have saying I'm something that shouldn't ever be? I am not giving anything up in Orlando!
Oops
"She has nothing to live for"
I don't even remember saying that.
Sorry to those who don't like it. Everyone is being wrong to me.
I don't even remember saying that.
Sorry to those who don't like it. Everyone is being wrong to me.
So
Why was the person who seemed to loudly Tweet "Dayte." so condescending. She's clearly a bit younger. If not, she still seems about my age. She's the baby of the class almost.
Problem
These people keep sending these random, annoying messages, maybe to make me have to fill out Word Captchas. See, they're just bad. I feel helpless, in my well-being, physically.
This 1 girl..
..like Lady GaGa said "Space" someone said "date" who's also in my class year but younger. Like, it seemed crackly, too, and thick, with a country accent for some reason that wasn't very right.
How to Say
She tries to look disgusting with a look like my dad, like the human features don't matter. I don't need to explain myself, but I did.
Oh, and why? Just to piss me off? Or just to rub in something weird. Maybe, it's just a look and that's what she does with it.. LOL.
Oh, and why? Just to piss me off? Or just to rub in something weird. Maybe, it's just a look and that's what she does with it.. LOL.
I'm sorry cuz
Some people may be sensitive to words cuz they're ***. Why does she try to look that way?
Don't Like Her
She has nothing to live for, is like my dad in disgusting ways, always staring like a scared deer in the middle of the road. She just goes against me. You all sit there and waste time every day. You attempt to limit my freedom of speech and lie about it. You don't care about my feelings. This stuff with my dad is shit. This is not how Christina's life's gonna go.
Weird
My dad was totally mean to me that things were right.
Who else is involved? I don't need anyone.
It's
Not so much wasting time on me as saying if I'm right for you. I mean me figuring it out. Why not just sit here on and blast @ racism. LOL?
Problem
Why're you all so selfish and annoying telling me I am not good enough tho I'm Chinese and pretty good considering? It's not true. You want me to look like all the ugly white people, and in the end I will be ugly.
Also, I come innocently out, and you all get into my life and ruin it without much consideration altogether.
Also, I come innocently out, and you all get into my life and ruin it without much consideration altogether.
Problems
They are insulting me again.
Also, you people are not as powerful as you think.
Doesn't this just leave you hanging? They sometimes kid.
Also, you people are not as powerful as you think.
Doesn't this just leave you hanging? They sometimes kid.
Is there something you want?
I didn't come here to say you were wasting my time. Why do you keep acting like I'm not even human and like my dad can tell you how to treat me? I don't wanna be close to him like that!
Questions Questions
I don't wanna know why you think I'm talking back when I use my freedom of speech and speak about anti-racism and such commonplace things.
Anyway, so, I know people like Bella Thorne cuz she's skinny and possibly in shape.
I just wanna know why people are using her like they did Nell Burton to cancel me out when I'm talking. I'm not saying anyone has to talk to me in particular but that I think in general others do talk to others. I'm not a mean person, people just tell me things like I don't really speak English. People are rubbing in the fact I have a hard, attacked life but ^miraculously^ managed enough to say I was something. How can people do this to me? I feel I've lost everything to some fat. Those other girls, they are always partying and never have to cook.
Does anyone else out there feel this is rude? I am so downtrodden by the day this nonsense. If you don't have something nice to say to me, why say anything to me, at all?
I know other things have happened, but this is just a general topic. I noticed you are indeed bossy, someone. Well, I'm here to tell you you don't act as though you have a clue who I am and maybe not who other people are. It's obviously not all about being skinny. I have other problems in my life. Seriously, don't point fingers at others, but I wonder why people think I am so fat and they are so much better. I think it's something else. My dad said they treated me like I was white as a baby.. how suggestive a claim to make at this point in the game. Well, you don't treat those other people like they are *Chi* *nese* now. Why, does their weight really float your boat, you high and lofty? A lotta people see more than that. I tried to get famous, but obviously it hasn't worked and will be even harder to have a successful life at about 30 rather than 20. What do you say to that? That really means something. I feel people think I am a female who just sits here and does nothing, but I'm just another person lucky enough to like being a girl it so happens. I have a voice and I've been barged in on. If you are judging me for my weight, you're something of a drinker. I have heavy drinking in my blood but do not actually drink, myself. Wait, why did I say that? I don't mean anyone in particular. Fine, go off and just talk to the fresh girls and leave a girl almost 30 hanging only to let her drop to her death, LOL. Don't bother them, but test me with things that don't make sense and shouldn't be done.
What a waste of time on brats for special late years of being born. Learn to appreciate you some substance in life. Let me let you in on a secret, those born in the 1980s are the least 1980s-ish prone. It's true, I was thinking of eating my Dominos, the new pizza restaurant. It was as heftily needed as Pizza Hut when I was little. I see you all hiding away with kids born around 1990. You just ignore me and feed them the pizza and think it's special I'm nearer your age enough. You're all mixed up!
What else? How to close?
Well, I mean no one no harm. I just want to talk to people on the fact that I am hated that I am stuck at home rather than getting skinny like I kinda was. I took weight training and jogged at college, jog now. I was kicked out and need a note to return in the Spring. What if I don't get that note? This other college keeps not getting my other transcripts. I hope I get it together by then. I should major in Music Education, which they have at the other college.
They just made a noise after all I wrote, suck an annoying attitude and snapped at me just now.., like this girl gets all this from this guy, too! Why? Something Ellen did. She was tacky treating her like a baby. Why would I be happy about that? No one is being nice to me! You leave her alone all day, and she is all schizophrenic being nice sometimes and selfish others. Don't say I'm shit just because she deserves some attention. If you rank people, I am not lower than her. I don't wanna be ranked lower. Why are you bothering me? I was ending my post. You're just wasting my time!! Why're you all slyly grinning making my life no fun? I guess that sounds concrete, but I see a lotta people do it. Stop acting like I did something. That makes no sense. Why are you talking to me? Get to the point! I see now, you aren't really just wasting my time talking about her age, but you're rubbing in something and leaving like you didn't do anything. I bet you're gonna make fun of this paragraph for when I said "Why?" but I meant what I meant. You're wasting my time. Watch, you'll just waste it some more. This wasn't even that important, and I ended up typing a lot for nothing. I guess it's something I do best. You know Ellen had my dad do a writing job like me? There may be a good reason to that and my mom getting glasses, but I don't think it was "right." I don't wanna mirror something like that like that. It's ***. Do it to yourself.
Anyway, so, I know people like Bella Thorne cuz she's skinny and possibly in shape.
I just wanna know why people are using her like they did Nell Burton to cancel me out when I'm talking. I'm not saying anyone has to talk to me in particular but that I think in general others do talk to others. I'm not a mean person, people just tell me things like I don't really speak English. People are rubbing in the fact I have a hard, attacked life but ^miraculously^ managed enough to say I was something. How can people do this to me? I feel I've lost everything to some fat. Those other girls, they are always partying and never have to cook.
Does anyone else out there feel this is rude? I am so downtrodden by the day this nonsense. If you don't have something nice to say to me, why say anything to me, at all?
I know other things have happened, but this is just a general topic. I noticed you are indeed bossy, someone. Well, I'm here to tell you you don't act as though you have a clue who I am and maybe not who other people are. It's obviously not all about being skinny. I have other problems in my life. Seriously, don't point fingers at others, but I wonder why people think I am so fat and they are so much better. I think it's something else. My dad said they treated me like I was white as a baby.. how suggestive a claim to make at this point in the game. Well, you don't treat those other people like they are *Chi* *nese* now. Why, does their weight really float your boat, you high and lofty? A lotta people see more than that. I tried to get famous, but obviously it hasn't worked and will be even harder to have a successful life at about 30 rather than 20. What do you say to that? That really means something. I feel people think I am a female who just sits here and does nothing, but I'm just another person lucky enough to like being a girl it so happens. I have a voice and I've been barged in on. If you are judging me for my weight, you're something of a drinker. I have heavy drinking in my blood but do not actually drink, myself. Wait, why did I say that? I don't mean anyone in particular. Fine, go off and just talk to the fresh girls and leave a girl almost 30 hanging only to let her drop to her death, LOL. Don't bother them, but test me with things that don't make sense and shouldn't be done.
What a waste of time on brats for special late years of being born. Learn to appreciate you some substance in life. Let me let you in on a secret, those born in the 1980s are the least 1980s-ish prone. It's true, I was thinking of eating my Dominos, the new pizza restaurant. It was as heftily needed as Pizza Hut when I was little. I see you all hiding away with kids born around 1990. You just ignore me and feed them the pizza and think it's special I'm nearer your age enough. You're all mixed up!
What else? How to close?
Well, I mean no one no harm. I just want to talk to people on the fact that I am hated that I am stuck at home rather than getting skinny like I kinda was. I took weight training and jogged at college, jog now. I was kicked out and need a note to return in the Spring. What if I don't get that note? This other college keeps not getting my other transcripts. I hope I get it together by then. I should major in Music Education, which they have at the other college.
They just made a noise after all I wrote, suck an annoying attitude and snapped at me just now.., like this girl gets all this from this guy, too! Why? Something Ellen did. She was tacky treating her like a baby. Why would I be happy about that? No one is being nice to me! You leave her alone all day, and she is all schizophrenic being nice sometimes and selfish others. Don't say I'm shit just because she deserves some attention. If you rank people, I am not lower than her. I don't wanna be ranked lower. Why are you bothering me? I was ending my post. You're just wasting my time!! Why're you all slyly grinning making my life no fun? I guess that sounds concrete, but I see a lotta people do it. Stop acting like I did something. That makes no sense. Why are you talking to me? Get to the point! I see now, you aren't really just wasting my time talking about her age, but you're rubbing in something and leaving like you didn't do anything. I bet you're gonna make fun of this paragraph for when I said "Why?" but I meant what I meant. You're wasting my time. Watch, you'll just waste it some more. This wasn't even that important, and I ended up typing a lot for nothing. I guess it's something I do best. You know Ellen had my dad do a writing job like me? There may be a good reason to that and my mom getting glasses, but I don't think it was "right." I don't wanna mirror something like that like that. It's ***. Do it to yourself.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Letter
To: Josh Groban
Well, today, you did a great job. You did seem a bit turned off, but I hope you're having a grand time! Wouldn't it be fun to someday cohost or duet with me someday? *bats eyelashes* I was a great singer, getting my voice back. All the hypes around, I wanted to be like Johnny Depp and act, but now I wanna sing, too.
Well, today, you did a great job. You did seem a bit turned off, but I hope you're having a grand time! Wouldn't it be fun to someday cohost or duet with me someday? *bats eyelashes* I was a great singer, getting my voice back. All the hypes around, I wanted to be like Johnny Depp and act, but now I wanna sing, too.
College Major
UCF - BME in Muis Education
has much less general studies cuz it's music + education..
has much less general studies cuz it's music + education..
I guess I can apologize..
..with how literal some of my thoughts may have balanced out to be. I just don't take some of the robotic cruelty that has happened to me in Orlando. I coulda been a hero.
I woke up happy..
..I've been offensive in defense, just happens. I realized that other people are like sitting behind a wall and throw insults or things at me I don't like. Oh well.. Sorry!
Yes, I feel this treatment is just too bad. Nothing seems to be able to be done about it. I don't think it's healthy to keep getting upset at it as it goes.
Yes, I feel this treatment is just too bad. Nothing seems to be able to be done about it. I don't think it's healthy to keep getting upset at it as it goes.
Couldn't the police just come in and arrest you..
..for making my computer take so long to load on a certain browser? I swear, you're really getting to me.
I detest this..
..I detest the secret messages I am getting here. They are all leading to nothing but trouble.
Problem
I don't need anyone ruining my life for my complex attack thoughts. I don't think I should be judged if I am always mistreated by everyone. The thoughts did not actually hurt anyone but stated my stance on their sin to me or others. It's not something you can remember and describe in words, not me right now at least. Go "hero" a real problem.
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